New diagnosis and life

Well we finally got to meet with the psyciatrist this week.  They have agreed with the theropist's thoughts of ADHD, and added a possible diagnosis of Asperger's to that.  You might be thinking... "How is she going to deal with that?  Poor thing just one more thing added to the stresses she is already going through..."  but you know what?  it seems a little easier now... I know that there is a reason for the behaviors...  and in turn I know there is a good likelyhood that I also have one or both of these issues myself (everything I read I see myself in a lot)  At first I just kept thinking great...two more "lables" to put on him,  but the more I see myself in the Asperger's esspecially,  the more I think how "normal"  I can be, and know that not ALL of
Robert's problems are just him being a BRAT :).  And maybe not all of the things I did was because I was a BRAT... that thought helps a lot... So I am going to take this and run with all the information I can find and try and help Robert come up coping mechanisims to help him deal with having to be arround other people now and then.  Like the ones I developed over the years....  sometimes it was just a matter of "faking" it (and no I don't mean faking "that".... :P) I mean pasting a smile on when I don't feel like smiling, dealing with changes in a more graceful maner than I did when I was a kid.  If I can get to the point where I am almost "normal"  (yeah I know... me normal? when was that :P) and deal with most things in life... get over the fears I have and do things that I HATE doing... calling people on the phone.  I would much rather email, text, or chat online with someone instead of having to make a phone call... and there are a few things that that just doesn't work with (can't make dr appoinments online...  )  I don't mind answering the phone, but I don't like having to be the one to initiate the call. or return calls either.  more than likely if I do have it (which I'll probably never know 100% yes or no) it explains so much about me... my fear of being late, my not wanting to be passed on the road, my not liking being arround a bunch of people I don't know well and my only having had two jobs (I hate change... and resisted it as much as I could... I'm not saying I never put out applications while I worked at other places, but the only job change was not really my choise... I had to have a job, and the store I was working at closed down).  How will I deal with this?  one day at a time.  so far since we got the diagnosis things haven't been as stressful for me and Robert with school...  the last two days I don't think I've yelled at him at all. 

trying to change

ok I'm a slob I admit it... (and those of you that know me know it is true) but believe it or not it isn't because I am lazy... but a perfectionist... I want it all done at once... and don't know where to start, and once I do get started I get discouraged when I look arround and see what all I have left to do :( so from now on I am setting myself small goals to accomplish in a set amount of time... my goal for this afternoon will be to wash dishes... all the dirty dishes I can find I am going to take into the kitchen and at 2pm I am going to work for 1 hour and see what I can get accomplished (I have a lot of dirty dishes :) ) When I finish a sink full I will dry what I have washed and put them up... there by freeing up more room to wash more dishes :)

I am also trying to get better at the way I deal with the boys. This depression I fall into from time to time makes me quite irritatable... so I am going to do my best to keep myself in a place where things won't get on my nerves as much. Which is really important when I am trying to explain things to Robert about school.

The random ness of life

Things have been going pretty good lately... well we're keeping our heads above water anyway... if only bearly.
Anyway school is well underway, slowly but slowly Robert and I are getting into a groove and getting use to things... right now we are doing block schedualing and it seemed to work pretty good this week... so we'll see how things go :)
I think what we are going to be doing for a while is 4 maths on Monday, 4 English on Tuesdays, 2 Sciences and 4 Texas histories (or it might be the other way arround) on Wednesdays, Thursdays will be Study Island (prep for the TAKS) and 2 ed techs, plus 2 math, and Friday is our light/catch up day with just art and PE schedualed... we'll do any make up work on that day... ie if we don't finish a math or an English wee will finish it up on Fridays... I'll also be giving Rober "quizes" to make sure he remembers what he is doing ;) so if this works out Fridays are going to be virually free days...Where we can go to the zoo, or do fun things (this is the day his 4H club meets, and I think I might try and make dr appoinments for Fridays so we won't have to miss much durring the week)

new day

Well just got the placement report from the online school for Robert for next year. He is going to be in the GT math and GT language arts :)... got to start buckling down and working with him now and after we get back from my parent's house later this month.
I really need to get a cat for the house... so we can get rid of the mice. Sunny (our dog) does an OK job, but she is not nearly as good as catching mice as a cat would be. These mice are like from NIMH or something... they can lick peanut butter off a trap without snapping the trap...
Not much else going on today, thinking about putting an application in with SPAR to do merchandizing or something on the weekends... I used to like that part of my job at CC, so I'd probly be pretty good at it. Not sure about doing it though. guess it would depend on the compensation.
Today's goals are to get Tommy's room moved about to put Robert's bed in there and clean out the room Robert was using as that will be the school in a month and a half. wash some dishes and clothes, and fix spaghetti and bread sticks for dinner.

new chapter in our lives

Well I've been a stay at home mom for over a year and a half now, and we are fixing to start a new chapter in our lives next month. Robert will be attending Connections Academy of Houston. This is an online public school. We are really excited to see how he and I both do with it. I think he is going to take off being able to go at his own pace for the most part and not having to deal with the other kids teasing him... He will be getting AFOs and knee stabilizers probably later this month or early next month. So the next few weeks we will be buckling down getting the house cleaned, and getting things ready for school time. Robert and I will be sitting down when the supplies get here and making out what his school work schedule will be like and look over everything they send.
I am trying to decide what all I am going to write about in this blog. Probably mostly going to be about school, and trying to find little things I can do here to make money to help supplement Ken's job... may include recipes from time to time, and maybe money saving tips that I think of from time to time. Staying at home is not easy, and I need to start buckling down and get things done around here... may just put down a list of accomplishments for the week.

my goals for today are to clean Tommy's room, cook bbq meatloaf, corn on the cob, and mashed potatoes for dinner. Tomorrow we need to go to the library and turn our books in, and get some more cleaning done (thinking of moving Tommy and Robert back into the same room so the back can be used as a school room study next month.) tomorrow I will tackle the kitchen and start with the sink :) got to start FLYing again...